huhu.......
exam dah lame hbs, tp aku blom merdeka lg!
tesis nk kna jilid...nk jilid takes time! nk kna tggu at least seminggu br siap..
wokshop ni lah wokshop tu la...merate2 wokshop!! wokshop wokshop wokshop!!
spanar xpegang pon!! cam2 speaker ada...cam2 ragam ada...yg besh ada, yg xbest pon ada...yg lawak ada...yg x lawak pon ada... tp yg plg besh skali DR SALIHAN la....hehehhe...atuk!!
aku mmg xde mmg xde nafsu la nk tido kalo dia bg crmh ! nk kelip mate pon syg rsnye...kalo missed sumthing...x ke rugi...:p
ahad adalah sunday
today is sunday! ...
sunday is holiday...
people go somewere!
and me? stuck here...
packing...boring...lying ...ooowhh so freaking crazy!!
esok i hv to see dr hasimah...settle oll those unsettle stuff...ahhh..so bengkek cuz my 2nd reader got soo many complaints 'bout my theses... aiyaa''' so burdensome ahhh... makes me feel sooooo angry lah...its end the semster....people having fun olredi, and me??? still do nothing except this thingy!!! erm...what can i do?? to get an A for ths, i must do anything and everthing tht is possible!!
aiyak....i getting older lah doing all these 'not-so-fun things"...
next year i guess i'll get 3yrs older than my fellow frens...~~~sigh
(pimples+blackhead+whitehead+headache+wrinkles+etc----> OLD WOMEN
i'm old~~~
hatred!!!
19 nov/15.11pm
Arghh…mmg aku xle nk concentrate rite now!! Bengang dari smalam sampia skang xhabis lagi…then dia tambah lg bara kat api yg nk cool down dahni…even slowly cam siot…slow reaction sgguh!!
Bangang sgguh!!! Aku benci manusia camtu…aku xpenah serik kot…walopon aku dah mmg tau dia mcm tu,,, selfish like pig!! Siot cam bastard!! Baboon mcm baboon la!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Aku BENGANG!!
Apa la mslah dia tu? Xcukup hormone ke ? terlebih hormon ke?? Peel cam syalll..
Ego xbertempat…marah xtentu psl…bangang lagi la xtentu hala!!
Ah..i want to stop here…if I don’t,..i don’t know what else I’m gonna say to this crazy bitch!
come~~come~~
pass one pper... 4 more to go!
hell yeah..i'm so happy even its not over yet...hahaha(tink tonk~~)
i want to 'modified' some features in my blog actly...but ended reading others blog...huhu...
warghhh..i dont have anything in my mind rite now...erm...(looking at my bed now.."come...come....)
ohh...gotta go!
c ya~
“kissing a fool”
The theme song for today is,
“kissing a fool”
You are far when I could have been your star
You listened to people who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough to even make a start
You'll never find peace of mind 'til you listen to your heart
People, you can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will, for they will
If you let them steal your heart from you
People will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through
Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So bye, but please don't take my heart
You are far, I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces and mend my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough to think you'd love me, too
You must have been kissing a fool
I said you must have been-a kissing a fool
But remember this, every other kiss
That you'll ever give long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man
One you really can surrender with
I will wait for you like I always do
There's something there
That can't compare with any other
You are far, when I could have been your star
You listened to people who scared you to death and from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
You must have been kissing a fool
---Yea..i feel like I’m kissing a fool today…
NO. I don’t really kissed someone…but…try to understand the lyrics….
It’s so much alike with what we always facing these days…
If A love B, doesn’t mean B love A too…who knows? B actually love C, which is A’s best friend?! Wth!
Last week, I’m listening to HOT.fm..and the topic for that day was “ the most ridiculous thing u ever done because of someone that u like.”
And to make it short, there is one guy. He said that there is a fat-ass girl that adore him soo much, she always make sure that she ‘exist’ in every place that the guy performs.( I guess, the guy join a band, a singer, underground thingy).. and he just do nothing bout dat because he don’t really bother about the girl existence… and one nite, while perform… the girl suddenly stand up and on her way to approach the guy on stage and…..she slipped and got tangled by all the wires on the stages.. Since that she have this ‘fat ass”, the momentum when she fall,, well…u can imagine by urself…no need to be elaborated. Yea… all people booing..but the guy want to show some respect kot, or gentlemans behaviour , perhaps?! Or maybe sympathy?.. he help her up. And she gave a rose to him..he accept it..
It’s not the main story, then after the show, he gave the rose (which is given by the 1st girl) to another girl that he likes. Ouch! He’s mean!!
Then The fat girl know bout dat…she felt humiliated…the guy felt nothing …dowh~~
the 2nd girl …I dunno..
But when the dj asked what happen with the 2nd girl..he said..
“ haha…xde ape pun. Sbb dia bkn suka sy pun!” hahaha J
Then he took the opportunity to apologize to the fat girl for being such a mean..
*moral of the story is,,, the GOD is fair. He always be fair to everyone.. He makes everyone suffer n happy at once.. so, be thankful.
Haha..so, to keep away from all these things happen to me, I always stay away from these kind of ..what we call? Hearts malfunction?
Haha… keep my distance…
be steady..
be cool..
be ignorant..(at least for this)…
be whatever I wanna be…
keep the focus…
career comes first…
love? Later~~~
deym! How I really want to get out from this place!!!
dunno pt.2
yea! i changed the template....and the color too...black is cool...but my eyes can't stand it anymore...most blogs i went used black as their blackground...
i love to read...but erghhh...it just...irritating!!
ahh....never mind!
i dont really like pink actly...but i already tried several colors...but dunno. i just hate all of it!!
i changed the url too...dunno why!
. the previous one sounds......shit! i just dunno!!
i want another..but they keep saying, "sorry, its not available."
deym!
last nite i slept earlier than usual...i'm not even sleepy yet...
but a bug kept disturbing...flying here and there...i HATE bugs!!
i can't blame it...should blame myself for not close the window...
so, i just went to bed.
can't even shut my eyes...
blink.blink.blink. and blink....
hairs is all around my room...
i hate to keep sweeping every single day..
why dont the hair just dissapear after they fall from my head???
i dunno why i keep complaining today.
forgive me for this.
i promise i wont do this anymore.
.
.
no. i can't promise that.
.
.
.
..................:(
lifehouse: take me away
this time what I want is you
there is no one elsewho can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
it was never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
cause I've seen it allit was never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Me, and my ice
I love crunching on ice…(I’m doing that rite now)… just love it x kire siang ke mlm ke…masa sejuk ke panas ke…masa mkn ke..masa tgk tv ke…can’t help falling in love with ice!!
there are sooo many people asked me why I like eating ice…they said ice is TASTELESS! “Baik ko mkn eskrem ke…sirap ke…air oren ke..” So, why the heck I love that tasteless thing?? Then I replied:
“ ntah. Aku pun xtau….yg aku tau..aku suke perasaan masa aku aku gigit ais tu…aku gigit gigit then, dia ilang!! Syok wooo… (pelik kah aku ini?)
Respond mereka yg bertny,:
“ hah?? Gile!”
Hahahha….whatever…what can I say,….
But, my friend once told me, or ADVISED me…, “weih, sukati ko la ko nk mkn ais pun…tp aku ckp kat ko ni…don’t u ever do that masa dating ngan bf ko nnt.”
Then I asked, “why??”
“ ala….jgn je la….xpyh tny byk.”
I was like, HUH??!!
And I’m still wondering…WHY huh?? ( naïve me..lol)
overslept
I guess dat I overslept today! for the past 2 days, I’ve been stayed overnight…reading + memorizing + jotting notes+ scrolling the mouse+ singing + watching movies..etc… the probability dat I’m not scrolling the mouse while studying almost zero! ! hahaha… it just unavoidable. Heh..
And I think because of staying –up-all-nite-long regime, my biological clock kind of ‘lari’ a lil’ bit…I didn’t sleep at nite, and I overslept the next day…erm…which is not good. there are 5 more days left before my first paper for this semester….(this is my final year here….sumtimes I feel that its too exhausting to be here…so, the fact that I’m gonna finish all these things in a lil more time makes me excited all over again )
I just happen found this web site. (www.happynews.com)... I think I shud giv it a try…sounds interesting!
*******
i slept early last nite....my head just spinning around...have to struggle today!! qada my wasteful day yesterday!! ergHh
erk~
bought this with hope to improvise my horrible english...but.......
its not easy at all!!! keep confusing me~~
been with me since form 1... such a big help for me~~just hate it in my lower fomrs' days...but after pmr.'she' was my fav 'storybook' ever since..being the loser is not fun at all..
which one is better??? erm...
ahhh....i jez lurve drooling over stuff in dat crappy mag.~~
ngahaha
journey to ipoh pt3
Endangered species: any species which is in danger of extinction throughout all or a significant portion of its range.
This is one part of my environmental sc. lecture notes slides. I’m not going to teach about biology…ecology or environmental science or whatsoever…but suddenly I think about what people always discussing on..especially here, in my campus.. The boys truly endangered here. no kidding! The ratio of boys n girls is 1:5. Meaning that, in my college itself, from 10 blocks, theres only 2 block of boys..and still, many house left unhabitated!!(ish, ada ke perkataan ni?? Just wondering where the others??
Hmm…while searching for the correct word in Oxford, I found this word:
Haggis: a scottish dish made mainly from sheep’s heart, lungs and liver n boiled in a bag that usually made from part of sheep’s stomach!! Euwwwww…….
Hah…actually I want to continue the “journey to ipoh”. :p
Soon after having breakfast, encountered the ‘cat n dog couple’…we drove straight to my school first. I was placed in smk jalan tasek, which my maksu na is a teacher there ( I think that could be a bonus for me…since a know someone from the school..but don’t know lah)
my expectations was high.. i thought the school must be BIG…MODERN…with beautiful SCENERY…etc…since I was told that the school located in the center of Ipoh town…
But…too bad… its not! The buildings look rusty..dusty…dirty (erk..not really actually)…erm..what else heh? I don’t even know how can I describe this school anymore.(sigh~~)
But the things is, I’m quite worried because the majority of students there, are Chinese. I’m soo scared that the ‘bad experience’ during my ROS 2 will happen again, which there is one genius Chinese boy….bullied his teacher! With his sarcastic jokes and posing irrelevant questions..he make his teacher sweating… Eventhough it’s not happened to me, but the class teacher, I still can feel the pressure. I’m pretty sure that the teacher felt so embarrassed because I was sitting at the back of the class ( I have to observe the teaching n learning process, so that I can implement the techniques or whatever skills the teacher use.. its not like I’m the one observing n giving out marks..mane layak lg! hahaha)
erm.. . but then, when I think about it, I guess i can bear it since the practical will takes only 14 weeks…its not like I’m gonna stucked there forever!!
dunno~~
exploring my pictures folder...found these pics:
* me, 'kacau'ing dodol.. i can't stand doing this even for 5 min! its not even 'likat' yet, but it really exhausting...too much energy to be wasted. i was the laughing-stock-of -the -day!hahaha...whatever it is, it still a good memory to b remembered...1st time of my life doing this kind of thing. thanx apit, for inviting me to his house.. :)
* once upon a time in miri....this pic remind me the sweet childhood memories..panjat pokok kari yg tersgt lah tggi n besar....
mkn fresh tomatoes, plucked directly from the tree....(the tree bended almost reach the ground bcoz there are too amny tomaatoes hanging on it....well...the soils in srwk really fertile...)
PLAYING WITH bOB..OUR FAMILY BEAR...real bear! no kidding..my dad found him in a jungle...his mother was shot, dead...so, my dad took him home...
* my pc...the screen showing one of the korean drama that i watched...(coffee prince) i don't really like this kind of story...too stereotype.
nothing special bout this drama. just spending my time...lazying~~plus i'm the one who would like to have fun no matter what, rite? huhuhu
~~ dayah, if u read this..dont say anything bout all the entries...i just enjoyed doing all this! hahahahaha
BOSAN!!
*i shud put my fingers away from the mouse..actually!
Journey to ipoh pt.2
I drank nescafe…I can’t sleep now..(intentionally actually~~) haha…erm..back to the story..we went to to McD right after we reached jusco…I did’t take breakfast before that so I’m soo hungry that I could eat anything! (kidding!) but, deym! I forgot that McD only serve breakfast from 8-11am! And I just couldn’t order anything….staring at the menu with no excitement at all.(usually I get soo damn excited entering McD, my Fav burger , McChicken!!! whOOaa..so great! ). The hunger and starvation just disappear….huh?? erm..but, dat’s ok! I just saved my money! Hahaha…
After tasha arrived, wait naim to finish her breakfast then we went straight to the car park….while we walking…suddenly we heard someone screaming…yelling…talking soo loud! I saw a couple…both in their fifties….arguing! I just like…huiyoo….she’s yelling in a public place!!
Old women : why u always like that? Hah???
Old man : because u always making up stories…
Old women : what?? Bla…bla…bla…(can’t remember what else she talked about)
Erm…the old man look embarrassed…pity him.. well. I think the old women was too emotional. Don’t know lah what happen after that because we just left… oh..forgot to mention, the old women is Chinese and the old man is Indian, I think. Erm….their childs must be pretty! Hehehe…
Ah! And… the morals of the story here:
1. anyone can be so childish even they are too old to be child! Hahaha
2. oopss… my mistake. Actually, people tend to be childish when they get older…
3. to all woman out there, don’t be like her. Plzzz….we have to ‘care’ our mans’ face..hehehe
pharaoh- the ruler of ancient egypt( term that i just learnt...heheeh)
King Tut's buck-toothed face was unveiled
Sunday for the first time in public — more than 3,000 years after the youngest and most famous pharaoh to rule ancient Egypt was shrouded in linen and buried in his golden underground
*this is the king before they put off the gold mask
* and this is the image they made based on the skull, i guess... he look scary, rite? with the dark eyeliner below the eyes...mmmmmmmm....
--- i just have nothing to do...too lazy to open the books..hahaha...so, i found this article and i jez...WoW...this is great! hehhe... he just 18-19 (erk...i forgot the exact age)when he's dead...pity~~ but the fact that he started to rule at the age of 8, was really shocked/impressed me!
just wanna share with u guys!
journey to ipoh
Today I went to ipoh…have to find the way to the school that I suppose to do practical there..yeah..we’re not going there and find the all the places by ourselves…we did bring someone that already familiar with the town…erm..she’s my cousin..tasha.(the prettiest among us, sheriff family.hahaha..and always the good girls…hm…) ..nuff said~~ the journey took about 1 and half hours…and i feel nothing actually.(I always got headache while traveling)…and this is good…(but, unfortunately, I’m feeling a lil’ bit dizzy rite now….)
Erk`~ but that is not want I want to tell now..back to the story…erm..about 9.45am, we arrived and entered the toll(ipoh selatan) ahah…I never been here…(dowh) and we just gambled….naim jez drove straight and we think we should just go straight until we see some buildings..or something like that lah…(meaning that we reached our destination lah)..and thank god..we saw TESCO….Then I’m sure that arrived safely…without being lost! Hehehe…
So, we decided to wait for tasha at JJ… (cewashhh,,,baru je skjp kat ipoh ..dah pandai ckp JJ…._i mean JUSCO)
I’m feeling too sick rite now..got to stop…….
wow!!
wow..........this is just great!!! i never thought that this was far better than friendster.blog!!
i actually created this account soo long time ago...but i never post anything here because i was too lazy to open this site..just posted my blog in the fs.blog...
it sucks! started yesterday...i just realized how SUCKs it was!!! erghh~~~~always got some problem occurs lah....bla bla bla~~~~~~~~
hahaha...tonite, i'm just wandered n do nothing....so, i think...why dont i just checked the account that i made last time and post sumthing here....we'll see...which one better....
hahaha...yea...this is good...i post entry that i already posted in fs and GOSH!!! it published in only 5-10 secs. shit..i'll never use the fs.blog anymore!
1 november...(unposted till today)
HRNI, TEPAT 1 NOVEMBER...dgr citer halloween Day...yeh?? xtau pun..haha..br tau~ nway HEPI HALLOWEEN!!!
hr ini juge, tepat 1 november...aku dah start bace subjek kedua iaitu TBP: PLANNING $ IMPLEMENTING BIOLOGY CURRICULUM)...setelah seminggu aku spent masa bc animal physio. shj. URGHhhH..
tBP:subjek yg klasnye aku xkan bosan..ekceli...xboleh bosan! sbb, DR. MARIA~~~ huhu... who know her will know what i meant by dat..(*-*)... spnjg aku bljar ini sbjek, byk teaching skills yg aku tau...constructivism? mastery learning? co-operative learning? behaviorism? bla bla bla~~~ tapi itu suma TEORI semata2!!! walaupun lab hour 3 hours/ week...every week...but still, aku rs it 's not ENOUGH! praktikal itu penting...aku xcukup lagi ilmu amali mengajar nih...erm..tp xpe, aku rs i'll get mature with time kot...lots of experience will help...hope so!
kalo nk ikutkan...sejak aku bljr subjek ini juge, aku br nmpk cikgu2 kat maktab dulu sumer gunapakai teknik2 n skill yg aku br blaja.... i noticed that...but, some of my frens said that they dont even know before they learn n their teacher never used those techniques..hmm.... (thinking~~) so, i felt soooOO proud that MY TEACHER was far advanced! hehe...dah nama pun MRSM PDRM.....WUHOOO...caaya la!!
erm..harini, 1 november juge...
aku dah hbs donlod movie korea..(3 extremes) fulamak weihhhhh!!! mmg extreme...satu movie ada 3 ceriter.. 2korean+1japanese= collaboration movie, i guess!
movie 1: dumplings- citer pasal sorg aktress yg dah tua, nk jd cun n fresh smula..sbb husband si pompuan ini main kuda kepang...(tak la...main pompuan mude) dah x lyn si tua gersang ini....SAD~~~ habis madu sepah dibuang.so, to regain keremajaannya, she's willing 2 do anything....termasuk la mkn dumpling (sejenis kuih yg ada isi veggies+meat)...jeng jeng jeng~~~ guess what? daging tu daging fetus!!! hahaha baby yg xckup umor...lg mude lg fresh!!! euwwwww~~~~ dging dicincang2 lumat n disumbat dlm dumpling tu...ngehehe....
2nd movie- " CUT"cite pasal sorg direktor film n si istri yg diseksa oleh sorg psiko yg xpueh ati ngn director tu...sbb, director tu baik sgt...he got everything in his life..good looks+money+good career+good family+beautiful n successful pianist wife....that psycho xpueh ati sbb the director was SO DAMN lucky in his life!! just because of that..mm.....
3rd movie: BOX- aku xnak tgk lg sbb...takot!! hhehe...ana(my rumet ) dah tdo.. kalo aku tgk...tetibe ada someone join skali...cemana?? xmauuuuuu!!!!
deym~~~ ke'extreme'man nye xdapat disangkal, kerana:
1) scene berdarah x di'cut' lgsg!! (termasuklah scene 18++)
2) the blood seems real!!uwekkss
3) all the things (fetus+blood+dead bodies) all lah~~~ suma cam real bangang!!
4) tahap ke'psycho'an si pembunuh dan yg dibunuh GILOSS AMAT!! pelik n gross!!!
5) sound effect toksah cakap la....gile bangang spooky!!
sape nk tgk, silalah donlod sniri di laman web sperti yg tertera di bawah..
www.veoh.com
anda hny perlu men'search' nama movie ini" 3Extremes"
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